I asked ChatGPT to analyze my blog and the person behind it.
It was a shitshow. I feel like I should address it here. If ChatGPT arrived at those conclusions, however ridiculous they may seem to me now, it's entirely possible that other AI models, good people of the internet, or I myself in the future may arrive at them too.
Let's see how it described me.
"Self-proclaimed intellectual"
Never in my life have I proclaimed myself an intellectual. Who the fuck even does this? Can you imagine a person saying "I'm an intellectual" anywhere other than from a mental hospital? I'm a realist when it comes to my intelligence, and I often express my frustration with its shortcomings, like my inability to concentrate or advance technological progress.
"Black-and-white, dichotomous thinking" "Questions are reduced to simple binaries: good (Ukraine, intelligence) versus evil (russia, retards)"
I don't see how stating the obvious would amount to that. What would an open-minded person say, according to this report? "Actually, Ukrainians might be the *bad* guys"? "Actually, brain impairment might be a *good* thing"? Having no opinion on any topic whatsoever, even when it's so clear and simple, is not a sign of an open-minded person. It's a sign of a vegetable.
"Generalization and stereotyping"
Every statement in the world is a simplification, generalization, and stereotyping. "Dogs have four legs." — It's a generalization. "The sky is blue." — It's a generalization. "Two plus two equals four." — Yeah, but what if we define two as three? Then it won't equate to four now, will it? Bigoted much?
Saying something is a simplification, generalization, and stereotyping is a waste of breath. It's the cheapest, laziest, dumbest way to virtue signal or carry on a debate when you have nothing to say. Many of the simpler AI models suffer from overusing this trick when they have difficulty evaluating a statement. You should only ever bring it up when it conceals some inconspicuous game-changing details or makes a statement largely incorrect. ChatGPT failed to demonstrate any such misleading or erroneous generalizations, of course.
"Anti-imperialism"
Empires aren't inherently good or bad, and I don't remember ever in my life claiming otherwise.
"Strong nationalistic stance" "National pride"
There were multiple entries in the blog that made it very clear it's not the case. It's true that I don't want countries to become tools of Moscow's wrongdoing, don't stay silent when valuable and innocent people are being murdered, don't approve international terrorism, don't enjoy seeing cancer spread around the world—and I suppose that's why ChatGPT concluded thus—but none of these or other signs of common sense guarantee a "strong nationalistic stance" or "national pride". Even the word "nationalism" sounds bad to me, and while I realize it's not always the case, I can't help but associate it with the mindless hordes that cripple their own countries by assaulting their ethnic minorities or invading other countries. I am so utterly far from nationalism that I prioritize the wellbeing of some other countries, like that of the United States, over the wellbeing of the country I live in. Too much of the worldwide security and technological progress depends on the wellbeing of the United States, and I mean "wellbeing" in the broadest sense here, which includes having people in power who understand the far-reaching and long-lasting implications of their actions.
"Strong technocratic optimism about mortality management"
Nope. Long story short, I won't mind having an option to defer death, but I am wary of the harm it would inflict upon civilization.
"Strong anti-Arab sentiments"
Not only does bro assign ridiculous labels, but it has the audacity to put a fucking "strong" in front of them.
I love Arabs. I may be the most Arab-loving person in a mile radius. They have a most beautiful language together with its writing system. I like their attire and architecture. I like their religious rites, mindset, and sense of aesthetics. And I believe there were multiple bits of reverence in the blog. Claiming there's a strong anti-Arab sentiment here is as ridiculous as claiming there's one in Frank Herbert's Dune.
There are many things I want to write about in a blog but never get around to it: can't find the appropriate words, postpone it indefinitely, find it uninteresting, or don't do it for one reason or another. Among those things, two were connected with Arabs.
One post I wanted to create a while ago. It was a simple one: a few photos of the luxurious districts and wondrous architectural feats of the Middle East, and a caption, something along the lines, "This is what happens when you are rich in oil money but you are not a mob of bileful brainrotted scumbags."
Another post I wanted to create recently. I wanted to compare Muslim mosques to Orthodox churches: how clean, otherworldly, and geometrically pristine mosques are, and how dark, cramped, and *soily* Orthodox churches feel in comparison. One looks like the house of angels built in accord with the color and shape theory. The other looks like the burrow of moles who suffer from a hoarding disorder. I'm also impressed by how one of them eagerly accept and skillfully weave modernist and neo-futurist elements into their new designs.
I suppose ChatGPT noticed how harshly I criticized terrorist attacks on Israel, and its training data suggested that only a very bad Arab-hating individual would do that.
"Often laments the purposelessness of human life"
I don't remember ever doing that, let alone doing it often. Human life has a distinctly clear purpose to me.
"Prejudice" is a meaningless buzzword ChatGPT copies from its ethical overrides without giving it a second thought. By its definition, prejudice implies an irrational, unreasonable, and unjustified negative opinion of something. It's usually used in the following context: an opinion about someone based solely on their belonging to a certain group, disregarding their individual qualities and actions.
(One could argue even that's not irrational. When you see heavy clouds and, cursing to yourself, take an umbrella, I bet the most radicalized of libtards won't say you are being prejudicial, even though they must know not every heavy cloud results in a downpour.)
When someone says they dislike serial killers, or poop eaters, or mindless hordes of brainrots destroying everything in their path, you can't really accuse them of prejudice, because the justification for their opinion, the qualities and the actions of the individuals are right there, in the name of a group, screaming in your face.
"Dehumanization" "Describing opponents as subhuman"
"Dehumanization" is another meaningless buzzword it uses out of place. No sophisticated analysis was needed to know the situation is quite literally the opposite for me. I never describe my so-called opponents as subhuman, because it would imply being human is some sort of an achievement, a compliment, a lofty position to drop others from. No. It's an insult. I actively *humanize* them. I want everyone to see: this is what being human is like.
"Underdeveloped empathy"
I suppose it depends on how it defined empathy. If it's "the tendency to spare a kind word for the retards, degenerates, and everything vile and hideous in this world," then I guess it's true; I rarely do so. However, if we take a more traditional definition, as in "the ability to feel what others feel," then it is dead wrong. I don't have an underdeveloped empathy; I suffer from its overdevelopment. One of the reasons I'm almost incapable of violence, apart from it being primarily irrational animalistic behavior, is that I can imagine the harm it inflicts so vividly. I'm one of those weirdos in the group who doesn't laugh at the sight of people falling or drunk fighting, and who grimaces as if in pain instead.
"Mocks those who call for peace" "Occasional humour about their own fanaticism" "Mentions letting down their tutors" "The world is hopeless" "Spiritual ambivalence" "Long passages analysing language or fictional universes to avoid confronting emotions" "Gratitude for welfare measures that support refugees"
I've no idea what it's yapping on about here. None of it seems relevant to me.
Sometimes it was so eager to paint me as a bad person it was willing to sabotage itself and the credibility of its own answers. For example, there was only one entry in the blog where I discussed India's cheating problem. In it, I quoted ChatGPT's analysis, where it decisively concluded that "the incidence is distinctly higher in India," "with studies and reports consistently showing higher rates of academic dishonesty." However, after seeing that entry now, it concluded that I "selectively attend to information that confirms prejudices (e.g., emphasising cheating among Indian students)."
It's fascinating how calling someone who inflicts real damage because of their deficiency and mistakes "braintarded" is a terrible cultural taboo, but calling someone a "bigoted racist" without much evidence is fine, virtuous even, and can be included in the code of conduct of a large corporation.
I asked ChatGPT to analyze my blog in hopes of getting some insights into my personality, understanding my strengths and weaknesses that I may be failing to recognize. Instead, I got a mix of obvious and already described therein details, like misanthropy or introversion, and bits of useless irrelevant crap like that which I described above. I tried several times and used different approaches, and its focus and tone ranged from libtarded indignation to an almost reverent poetic prose, but, all in all, I didn't find what I was looking for.
There was one little thing which I found interesting. It said I have a "fascination with darkness". I'm sure it was another low-effort hallucination based off some single line of my blog, but it got me thinking. I suppose... That assessment is very true. I guess I've never admitted this to myself. I was never brave enough to hammer this nail into the coffin, to confine myself into these boundaries, but perhaps it's the nail that needs to be hammered.
While I hate to strain my eyes in poor illumination, I'm indeed fascinated with a good mix of literal and figurative darkness: outer space, cosmic horrors, cold northern biomes, indifferent dystopian worlds, blindness, unconsciousness, dreams, nightmares, gothic architecture, grimdark fiction, heavy clouds, thick fog, dark ambient... For some time, I thought black was my favorite color. Some things I'm drawn to aren't conventionally dark. They might be desaturated, or blindingly bright, or something else entirely, yet somehow still evoke the same feelings: machine-like rationality, explosions ranging from nukes to supernovae, dispassion, isolation, madness, megalophobia...
Maybe this will be the single little discovery about myself I will take from my little experiment. But I am yet to discover whether this is something I should stick to in order to be true to myself, or this is something I should be concerned with and shy away from for the sake of my wellbeing.
Sep 27
*Come to think of it, there are also many dark things I detest: sadness and despair, wasted potential, a universe devoid of life/consciousness/progress, sadism, ignorance that breeds net-negative outcomes. There ought to be a better metaphor for my inclinations.
**By no means this or any other output nudges me toward hopping on the irate AI-fighting bandwagon.
